Halloween

My mom liked Halloween to have parties for the kids. Wearing there costume and getting candy. Well Selah did not get to go because she have the chips away to her friends. Which was i could us her to pass out candy. No one came. Strange holiday. Shonaray took Isaiah and Jeremiah out they went far I guess ... Did not get a lot of candy though.
My dad tried to visit my brother new house. But he was not there. So many another time. Still her helping my sister. I get annoyed of my dad calling and bugging I don't mind it but it gets annoying.

My thoughts for today

Every since my family found out I was moving into apartment. I been getting lines like I don't need To live alone. I need to be with family. I don't see why I should live somewhere else. I am not mad I am annoyed. Because no one in my pocket but me. It's my life. I need to be able to be free.
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Today my mom birthday. She would be 56 today. You are you deeply missed. I just think of you all the time. I miss doing things with you and talking to you and hearing your laugh.

It's funny

Things that I notice but I let it go.

Today my mom birthday. She would be 56 today. You are you deeply missed. I just think of you all the time. I miss doing things with you and talking to you and hearing your laugh.

Thinking about Stuff

i been looking at things from another percpective. I am ready to change my life and me.I beenseriously depressed and down on me and my self lately thinking of my momand worried about the what ifs. Such as what if she did not died. Would she be angry about things. Would I still be friends with my friends that I loss over the years because i didnot know. All the what if it causing me to think and feell bad. I  don't want that. I want me to be happy. I just need some clarity to know that things are going to change.
Today I get punched in the face. And then he is all in love with me later. That's crazy.

Days like this

I don't know what is wrong with things lately. I feel like my stuff bit balancing out in my head. It's like equal not equal. I am happy sometime and then after that fail. I just want to have the love, happiness or just something. I miss him sometimes don't know why. But attention is attention.