Today my mom birthday. She would be 56 today. You are you deeply missed. I just think of you all the time. I miss doing things with you and talking to you and hearing your laugh.

Thinking about Stuff

i been looking at things from another percpective. I am ready to change my life and me.I beenseriously depressed and down on me and my self lately thinking of my momand worried about the what ifs. Such as what if she did not died. Would she be angry about things. Would I still be friends with my friends that I loss over the years because i didnot know. All the what if it causing me to think and feell bad. I  don't want that. I want me to be happy. I just need some clarity to know that things are going to change.
Today I get punched in the face. And then he is all in love with me later. That's crazy.

Days like this

I don't know what is wrong with things lately. I feel like my stuff bit balancing out in my head. It's like equal not equal. I am happy sometime and then after that fail. I just want to have the love, happiness or just something. I miss him sometimes don't know why. But attention is attention.

July over

Can you believe the months over? I have had a real weird month. Been thinking of my mom, friends and hoping that the family okay.

Beach Trip

On Saturday we did our sister beach trip. It was so much fun. In the am, we went to the starter bros and got stuff and the ice chest. You'll laugh.

Then we left to the beach and went to Newport. Loved it. It was fun. Selah sat on the ice chest lol. So funny

Angels Games or Sister Game

I went to my Angels Game. I had a blast with my Sister. I was happy to spend time with my family. I need To get my eyes checked. But we had the best seats I believe. I think in sat there before. Even the people I sat with were funny as heck.

Feeling

Your the last person I think about before I go to bed. You the first person I think of before and when I wake up. What do I do?