Today my mom birthday. She would be 56 today. You are you deeply missed. I just think of you all the time. I miss doing things with you and talking to you and hearing your laugh.

Thinking about Stuff

i been looking at things from another percpective. I am ready to change my life and me.I beenseriously depressed and down on me and my self lately thinking of my momand worried about the what ifs. Such as what if she did not died. Would she be angry about things. Would I still be friends with my friends that I loss over the years because i didnot know. All the what if it causing me to think and feell bad. I  don't want that. I want me to be happy. I just need some clarity to know that things are going to change.
Today I get punched in the face. And then he is all in love with me later. That's crazy.

Days like this

I don't know what is wrong with things lately. I feel like my stuff bit balancing out in my head. It's like equal not equal. I am happy sometime and then after that fail. I just want to have the love, happiness or just something. I miss him sometimes don't know why. But attention is attention.